Category: u are what you think

Well, the epitome of innocence are children. It’s said that children are angels on earth they see everything but respond only to the good ones. 

So today my day started with my usual workout routine and today I was blessed to see some of the cutest kids of my society. It happened to be the sports day of a playschool which was being conducted in the park where I go every day for walking. Every day I meet a bunch of health-conscious people in the park but today was totally different.  The Park was filled with cute little angels in red and white uniforms and red monkey caps (resembles cute lil elves). Those kids gave me a very innocent look while I was passing by. That time I realised the true meaning of innocence, the innocence which we all had once, the innocence which made me think that everyone was good in this world and everything was always meant to be good. 

When we are kids, we tend to know nothing about the world and we are always curious about learning the so-called facts and meaning of adulthood. But trust me each n every one of us feel that we want our childhood back why because we have all lost that innocence which was the best factor about childhood.

Those twinkling eyes filled with innocence forced me to ask a very deep question to myself that where did my innocence suddenly vanish?? 

It was rather a very tough question to answer because at that moment I realized that innocence is inversely proportional to maturity. The more you get matured in your life you tend to lose your sense of innocence because you tend to accept the reality of life. 

But the jest of staying happy and contented still remains with the innocent feeling which all of us must have because that innocence always kept us alive every single moment and with this fast-pacing life we somewhere have lost it. 

It’s time to bring the hidden innocence back to your life and go back to the childhood times where life was never tough and things were always merrier.

Bring the child back in you and stay happy forever…… 

I miss you……. 

A well felt emotion when a loved one leaves or their absence. Basically, you start missing the presence of a person which you were so habituated with. Being with someone is sometimes very addictive. You tend to depend on that person for certain things and when the person is absent you miss then. 

 Sometimes we even miss ppl who we never imagined would make a difference in our life. Why does this happen?? I think somewhere down the line each m every person who surrounds us has some or the other effect on our daily life, it may not bemajor but everyone has some influence on each other.

Once a while you smile, or sob or repent of cherish the moments you spent together when you think about your loved one or the one you miss. You tend to bring out all your memories and emotions you once felt with that person.

Most of the time we forget to express our emotions to our loved ones, or when we do it’s not exactly the same intensity what we feel. 

I have been staying away from my family for 9 years now… Long-time indeed…  But still every single day I miss my parents. I miss their presence in my small daily habits…  I also go through a nostalgia every day in some or the other thing I do which makes me feel the absence of their presence. Also, I have realised that when you miss someone you actually respect their value in your life which is a worthwhile.

I mean it’s okay to miss someone…  It’s okay to remember them…  It’s okay to be you with ten for some time at least in your memories…. 

So, as I always say enjoy every emotion because every emotion makes you a different you…. 

Feel and cherish…… Live every moment. 😇😇😇😇

So what exactly is confusion???? 

It’s, that state of mind where you are actually blank, not able to decide what’s the right decision. Basically, you know what exactly you want but you still pretend that you are confused, well you are not confused you have the answer within you.  You know it all. Maybe you don’t want to accept what’s inside your mind or you don’t want people to judge you on what you want….

So why exactly do we pretend confused and to whom????

Just to pacify ourselves that yes, I’m confused and I still don’t have an answer. Hmmmmm true much……. 

The moment you decide to end your confusion and choose an option is the time when you have made your mind to accept what you choose will be your choice and no one can decide it except you. 

There are many a times when you would seek your friends or family to help you out for you to come out of this state called confusion.  At that particular moment you actually you want them to choose what you want rather than what is right and when they choose another option; which is not the answer inside your mind you would get annoyed.  Because you already know what you want and want to hear it from someone else’s mouth. Funny isn’t it the answer is in front of your n you keep on pretending.

So, each and everything you are confused at, you are not. 

The answer lies in you, with you, starts and ends with you only you.   So, look deep inside your mind and you will find the answer. 

 Just try it ask yourself and you will find your way through…….. 

As the year 2021 was starting everyone hoped for a normal, pandemic free year, but who knew what this year behold for each one of us.

We all thought that year 2020 was the worst because we were all caged up in our own houses for a longer time. As the restrictions started lifting away the fear of the pandemic also started reducing.

There was a huge chunk of population who never believed in this pandemic and the virus as such. Many considered it as a political agenda and many believed that they have amazing immunity that this virus cannot touch them. Well, my point of view was the virus does exist and I don’t know how my body would fight with virus and I have been taking all the possible precautions and make my body as healthy as possible.

The year 2020 somehow passed with the hope of starting a new year. Well year 2021 has been worse I would say. This year the virus has mutated and the spread was massive and as every 1 out of 5 people was infected in India.

From march end the virus started spreading like fire. Every day the only thing which I could see people asking for medicines, oxygen cylinders, hospital beds. All I could do is to pass the information which I had to help others. The number of deaths were increasing day by day. My only prayers during these difficult months were to keep everyone safe and healthy.

On march 20^th my mother was not keeping well and two days later my father and brother were also not well. 23^rd march was my birthday and I was extremely sad because my parents and my brother were unwell. I was heavy-hearted that day and was feeling pathetic. Somewhere inside my mind I had this fear “is my family a victim of the virus”. We stay in different cities so the only mode of communication was through calls.

I compelled my parents to get the RT PCR teat done. Two days later they my parents tested positive and my brother tested negative. It was a shock for me because my parents were very cautious and always took all the precautionary measures. They got infected because of some idiots in their office who never believed in the virus.

I was shattered truly; I never felt so helpless before. Even though I had my husband and in laws who were continuously pacifying me and praying for my parent’s speedy recovery, I was blank. I couldn’t understand what to do. My brother was more shocked than me, and I had to give him strength and motivate him.

The most difficult 14 days of my life. Seeing my parents in pain was living in nightmare. They were unwell but they never showed me how much pain they were in and I know they have suffered because of someone else’s negligence. At that moment I lost all my positivity, the feeling of numbness was over powering all my other senses. I couldn’t even take care of them as I couldn’t travel because of lockdown. I felt guilty for not have been present there. At that time the only thing which I could do is call them and be with them virtually.

Those 14 days my brother had exams, he managed his studies and submissions, cooked nutritious for for our parents and cleaned house; he did everything amidst this state of shock. I really don’t know how he did it but I’m really grateful to the almighty who gave him strength. It was truly a very difficult phase for us.My parents recovered with good health and are doing well with god’s grace.

Also you really understand who really cares about you when you are in trouble. The people whom I first called for help never even bothered to look how my family was doing. And there are friends who are more like family members who kept on enquiring about the health and any necessities. I am grateful for all who helped us during this time. And for those who did not bother I would like to say “ sabka time aata h aapka bhi aaayega”.

More than physical suffering this pandemic has made me suffer mentally. Its very very difficult to stay positive during this phase. The only thing which kept me sane is the hope of recovery and good health.

Stay safe and stay cautious. Get vaccinated, if not for you but for your elders. Because possibly you can have good immunity, unfortunately they don’t.